Mike asked me to post again, so here I am. So how am I doing? “Fine” is my usual answer. Those who know me well know that fine is not so great. But, I don’t really know what else to say. Is Mike fine? Yes, other than the blood blob in his head. How fine is that? Are the kids fine? Yes, unless they think too much about the second week of February. Am I fine? Yes, until some silly thing, like needing dental work done, sets me off.
So here we sit, waiting for surgery in February, trying to keep Christmas and my sister’s wedding happy, all the while wondering if we’ve really made the right decision or not. That sentence typifies what my thoughts are like. They are rambling and seemingly disconnected. But I always end up in the same place. We have fervently sought God in this decision. We have repeatedly asked for His mercy to our entire family during this time.
One of the ways He has shown His mercy toward us is through His word. Mike just finished a sermon series on discerning God’s will in the amoral decisions of life. Interesting timing, isn’t it! Yesterday I read a sermon given by a former pastor of ours many years ago on the same topic. I was amazed at how many of the points were the same. The text for that sermon was Psalm 25.
Let me just list some of the verses that encouraged my soul: 1-2: “To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul. O my God, in you I trust;” 4: “Make me to know your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths.” 6: “Remember your mercy, O Lord, and your steadfast love, for they have been from of old.” 14-18: “The friendship of the Lord is for those who fear him, and he makes known to them his covenant. My eyes are ever toward the Lord, for he will pluck my feet out of the net. Turn to me, and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged; bring me out of my distresses. Consider my affliction and my trouble and forgive all my sins.” The psalmist’s thoughts are much like mine, ramblings.
He shares his heart, says he trusts in God, yet needs forgiveness from sin and and needs to be made by God to know His ways. That’s what we’ve done. We’ve sought God and trusted that the path we head down is the path He wants us to travel. That’s the only way I know to make a decision. That’s the only way I can live with whatever the outcome is. That’s the only way I can teach our children about the ways of God. God has called me and saved me and He will sustain me through this trial. So when I look at it that way, I couldn’t be any better!