I wanted to let you all know that I had a seizure this morning, a generalized tonic clonic, that lasted for 60 seconds. The nurse had just walked into the room when my right arm, which was laying at my side, began to raise up incrementally and involuntarily until it was over my head.
Then it sort of took over my whole body. I was lucid throughout and tried to make myself come out of it…but I couldn’t do it. What an amazing sense of utter helplessness. I heard every conversation and word that was spoken. Now THAT was scary. I didn’t know if I’d ever come out of it or if I would be able to breathe much longer.
The strapping male nurse (probably 6’4″ 250 pounds) and rugby player, held me down, along with a team of others. They said I was strong. That made me smile inside. This seizure, and coming out of it, was entirely different than my experience back in October. After today’s seizure I was lucid once again within ten minutes.
The really smart guy that follows Dr. Meyer around and will also be a part of the surgery (perhaps a neurosurgical fellow) was in the room within 5 minutes assuring me that things were all right. He said they had ordered a CT to see if any bleeding had occurred. Thankfully it showed that none had. As of now the angiogram and embolization procedure is still on for later this morning.
The embolization of arteries redirects blood flow and pressures in the brain, thus causing seizures. I guess that’s why they put me in ICU.
The exact same Bible verse that came to me as I was coming out of the seizure in October came to me again today at the end of this episode. Only this time I quoted it to the fellow and the nurse, through closed eyes and slurred speech.
“Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever” (Psalm73:25-26).
Please pray that today’ embolization will not lead to more seizures prior to surgery tomorrow.
A couple more things I am thankful for that I neglected to record yesterday:
- Those of you who are fasting and praying (even beyond those in our church)
- All five of my children, each one a unique treasure to their mother and me.
- The Panera Grilled Chicken Caesar Salad I chowed down last night.
- Stams Chocolates
- Each and every day!
Thanks for battling with us!