For the past couple of days, Mike and I have been discussing when I should go back home for a couple of days. We had decided that I would go home today and try to come back on Tuesday. When I got back from lunch yesterday, Mike said, “I’ve got an idea. How about if the kids come up here for the day on Saturday, so they can see me up and without tubes.” I thought that was a great idea!
So, my parents are on their way up with the kids. We have the dining room reserved and we’ll go get pizza for lunch, which is a more normal thing to do than sit in a hospital room and chat with your dad. Mike is very excited about this, and hopefully the kids are too! The girls have only talked to him on the phone, so it should be good for them to talk to him in person. Later this afternoon I will head back home with the kids.
Mike slept well again last night. I’ll never make fun of another Ambien commercial again! It really helps everything to be more rested. He is frustrated with his inability to do what he wants to do. He told me that I have no idea what it’s like not to be able to do things he wants to do. He did not say it in a mean way, just a frustrated, matter-of-fact way. He’s right, I don’t know what it’s like, and neither does anyone close to us. Mike’s roommate, Melvin, knows parts of it, but his abilities are different than Mike’s, so he can’t understand perfectly. I have paid attention to how much I actully use my left hand, and I use it a lot more than I thought. Then there is the inability to walk, or squat, or bend, or move over on the bed, or… I don’t understand.
As you think of our family over the next few days, please remember that I will be home with the kids and Mike will be here alone. I did not feel well during the night. I never vomited, so I think it was just what I call “stress stomach.” I really want to be home with the kids, but I also do not want to leave Mike here without me to check on him. All the doctors seem to think it’s a good idea, so I’ll just have to trust that I’m doing the right thing. We have friends from town that will make brief visits, just to make sure he’s doing okay and to get food if the meals are too bad! We appreciate all the prayers on our behalf.