Surely there must be some of you more reflective people out there who are wondering….just what did God do with all of my prayers for Mike and Karla? That is, for the initial brain surgery. You know…the prayers that thousands of you must have offered up before the throne of God that I would come through this with no complications and such? Did He not hear you?
Our prayer through all of this has been “Lord, however you can be most glorified…do it.” Karla even confided with me through tears last night that as I went in for open heart surgery [to have the blood clots removed from my heart and lungs] she prayed “Lord, please save him…but if you don’t it’s all in your hands anyway.” It takes an amazing amount of faith to utter such words.
The further I am away from this ordeal the greater the appreciaton and admiration I have for Karla…who was present even during the 20 minute seizure [just prior to the cardiac surgery], which I cannot remember. The staff at Mayo (St. Marys) is amazing. 30 minutes after the doctors decided that surgery was the only option, they had my chest opened up…pulling a blood clot nearly as wide as my heart from my heart, and 22 clots from my lungs.
I didn’t know until a few days ago that once they found out what was going on they were very concerned with whether or not my brain had been receiving oxygen or not. Thus, when I heard that Dr. Fogelson was ecstatic when I moved my left side (remember…I was out on my right side after the initial brain surgery) I began thinking of all the possibilities and what if’s… Karla had to live with the very real possibility of me dying or living, but with serious deficits. As it is she gets to have me with only the deficits I had before going to Mayo.
We met with our internist yesterday (Dr. Nordstrom) and he said that in 25 years of practicing medicine he has only heard of one other case of a person who lived through what I did. I didn’t realize how close I was to the edge of death. I still have to pinch myself sometimes to make sure I’m really alive.
This is how God was most glorifed in this fiery trial…including the blood infection and the blood clots that very nearly did me in. God is sovereign over the trials in our lives. He guarantees that He will work all things for good for those who love him and are called according to his purposes (Rom. 8:28).
If we could see into the future we never would have chosen this path. But we cannot see into the future. The future things are the secret things that belong to the Lord. Some of you, no doubt, are just days away from finding out some bit of news that is even worse than we heard on October 23, 2008. But until you get that news, and even after you get that piece of news I want to encourage you to obey Philippians 4:6-7 “The Lord is at hand, do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God , which surpasses all understanding, will guard you hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”
Still…just happy to be here,